I have not written as much as I had wanted to, but too much is going through
my head to narrow anything down.
Summer is here so all the reruns are on television. I have been serious
about using this time to get back to my writing. This is not what I wanted to
start back up with though…
I am re-reading what I wrote in 1994, so many emotions and they are all mine. I
started to get bored because it has been the same way in my past diaries. I am
feeling sorry for the person I was, always very sad and that bothers me.
I wished that what I know now I could have known back then, I know everyone
says that, I am not alone. Lol, I honestly wished I knew that ten years ago.
I am so content within myself, and I wish I had had that ten years back. I
am very humble for where I am now, so I have accepted it, because I am so
grateful that I have closed that door to who I was permanently.
Then I finally saw it, the pattern, that pattern that has repeated itself over
a dozen times. I started laughing my ass off! I could not believe what I was
reading. I realized how many times that the same situation in my life happened
over and over and over again.