On May 8th, Sunday, twenty some years ago, my grandmother passed away. My daughter was four at the time and we spent Mother’s Day at her house with our huge family.
I do not see most of them anymore, Mother’s Day from there on was never special. I loved her so much, but she showed who her favorites were, and it was not my little family. I thought she was a great person anyway; she was always helping someone in need. She was the one that would get the whole entire family together who I had not seen in many years.
My only memories of Mother’s Day just sucked.
Years later I met the man that I would spend the next 20 years with. He was good to me the first few years, but I barely remember them. There was a time that we took his son in, because of a bad situation with the mother. I took care of his son and for many years he dismissed me as a mother. He was responsible for many years of me ending up in tears. I am so humble that he is no longer in my life.
I also have a memory of my daughter stressing me out, it gave me anxiety so bad my body shook.
I do want to say though, that the last few years have been good to me.
So yesterday was Mother’s Day with my daughter.
Plans kind of came together for today. I get to have my granddaughter and lay by the pool and my roommate is throwing a BBQ.
No Wi-Fi, no cable for a week and I am sitting here waiting for the cable guy. Yes, it is Mother’s Day, and I am sitting out front on a bench with a thick pile of leaves all around me. I am keeping my eyes out for snakes.
It is a beautiful day out and I wish that I were riding on a motorcycle. Blue, my cat is staring at me from the window.
Hopefully, the cable guy gets here soon so that can be out of the way.
Today must be awesome because the weather is just great! This breeze feels so good.
Turns out the cable appointment was yesterday, and he did not have common sense to ring the doorbell, I did not even hear him knock.
Ok, so my roommate just came home and told me a friend is on a ventilator in the hospital and that is all she knows.
Mother’s Day