I am so happy that you did not come back begging,I am so happy I let you go. I am glad that I had to go through the worst of you,For that I am stronger than before you. I have learned the greatest lesson of all,Being independent is my best feature. I have learned so much about myself,I no longer need your advice or acceptance. I hear you found out the grass is not greener on the other side,Now you are stuck, by the way, it’s your own doing. I waited for two decades, and I am so happy we […]
“I watched a video of a couples wedding.”
The groom’s thoughtful gesture of printing a shirt with the bride’s late father’s picture for their father and daughter dance at the wedding moved me to tears. As I reflect on my emotions, I can’t help but wonder if they stem from my challenging childhood or the desire for a closer relationship with my own father, a void I’ve always felt. At this moment, I find myself at a standstill, hoping for something extraordinary to happen. Despite facing a tough start as a premature baby and enduring difficult events in my childhood, I have survived and come this far. The […]
Hi there, you told me to write to you when things have happened. Well, here it goes. (This is an email I had written my therapist a year after I had received treatment from her.)
My worries and fear that I had about my boss Kevin happened, he had a massive heart attack on August 5th, 2017. He died instantly; I grieved so hard that it brought on shingles. It was so difficult, but finally I accepted it. In December of that year my company was bought by an investor, we turned from a family-oriented business into a corporate business. They are good to us, it’s just that I am just so busy I am overwhelmed. So, I went to Hall and Oates concert and had a flash back about my dad. I hadn’t quite […]
The Present
A year and a half ago I was still working at a job I was at for fifteen years. There is a post office located behind my work and a guy I was fond of worked there. Twelve years ago, shortly after my relationship of twenty years ended, I got the courage to ask him out. I had asked him to a fourth of July party, but he said that he was seeing someone, I was like “oh man that took me a lot of courage to ask.” Fast forward to the present: we reconnected, he treats me like a […]
I have not had my radio/record player in weeks.
I had just bought several records before I broke it. Well, I finally got it back from a friend who fixed it, I mean I could have always played the songs on YouTube, but there is nothing better than hearing the cracks and crackles of an album. Then it dawned on me why albums on a record player bring me back to my childhood. Whenever I was escaping a scary part in my life, I would listen to records, and they took me away into another world. I can remember the music taking me to when the artist was recording […]