Sitting here at my desk looking out the window as I have done before. This is all I do now at my job since they took all of my responsibilities away.
When my boss’s phone rings it makes me jump out of my skin even though it’s the same ring tone as mine.
Today I don’t feel as strong as usual or like to be.
Patience is very harsh when the unknown is involved.
This past year my anxiety; I have never known like it is now. Feeling my worth is in someone’s hands and not knowing what their intentions are.
I have never felt this invisible feeling in my gut before. I know it’s nervousness but it’s so incredibly demobilizing because it takes over my emotions and my thoughts are not my own anymore. Your days get ruined; weekends get ruined.
Day by day I wait; night by night I question if I will sleep or not.
